always: ive thought myself out of other situations and other bad feelings and i’ll think myself again out of this one. always: never settle until i’m not the loser anymore. never settle until i’m the one who’s gained the most when everything is put into a balance i can be satisfied with.
(even though, of course, i always lose. always. but i’ll think myself into a way of living where i can be comfortable with that too. i’ll romanticise loss, ill romanticise rejection and loneliness. until it doesn’t hurt me anymore.)
((but never learning anything.))